Allow me to introduce.. This is Hui Yee, Hui Ru, or maybe Stephanie.. She's currently studying Year2 Diploma in Quantity Surveying at TarCollege. According to the above picture, at the back of her is her new wardrobe. Yup, it's a lovely pinkish wardrobe. She was home alone at that time, so, she has alot of free time for her to do some camwhore (^.^) Other than that of course, she swept the floor, tidy up her study table and helped Bi to fold all his shirt up. Live without any telly, computer or radio at home, this kind of life..seriously boring. It's so lifeless. I thought of these when our lecture's notes were haven't given out yet, till..i got it by this week. 
Situation turns better, though I still feel like something missing from apart of me. I do not wish that I'm lost anyway. Will try to catch up my lesson as much as I can within this semester and what I wish the most is the friendships among my friends and I will never change, no matter what things happened between us. It's hard to search for a good friend you see, then how bout a best friend? It's even tougher. I hate friends who easily felt jealous of me or being quiet when I did something they dislike. You can tell me immediately when you feel so. I wouldn't mind if seriously i did wrong something. I'll just apologize then. Please don't keep your feeling off me okay? I will always be your listener but not the one who you gossip of at the back of me. Although I've Bi right now, although I've used to stick with him most of the time wherever he goes, although Bi likes me to stick with him as what he said to me last time, but, things may change in the future, you would never know that your friends may willing to wait for you or not all the time whenever you got no date with your Bi, they may will feel bored of you sometimes. Fortunately, Bi seldom let it happens to me, whenever his or my friends ajak us out, most of the time he'll try to gathered them all together as a big gang. Not only him i could mention, including my besties, Shuer and Hancheng also. I remember when we were in high school, we seldom went out together in a big big gang included mine and his classmates. However, many of us changed nowadays. We split into many small tiny group to all different colleges and universities.
There was the a heart breaking story I've just told by Bi lately. I felt that my tears were rolling in my eyes again. He said that he wants to be more concentrate in his further studies, he wants to put his friends and even his dear aside, for 2 to 3 years? maybe longer than that i guess since he has chosen to study Architecture. I don't mind for waiting you ok, but i just hate ignorant. What's the meaning of putting you aside? Hate that words. I'm a sensitive person i admit. I'm sensitive of people who just ignoring me or dislike me. That's a very cruel act for me you know. I just can't live life like that. I want to live with the people I love. But it's hard to say sometimes because we couldn't predict our future. As I mentioned just now, things may change, people may change too. We couldn't stop others for not doing this and that. We just couldn't control what we want it to be. Even someone's heart, someone's mind.
I want to make myself clear here. In the same time, I'm searching for the security of my mind and heart, or else I'm afraid of I'll lost of direction. I wouldn't know whether in the future I can do well in quantity surveying or not, I wouldn't know whether my future will be as so perfect as you said to me in texting or when you were cuddling with me. I do not dare to imagine all those from this second onwards. I just want to do my best for everything I should do it right now.
"... Bella accidentally fell down to the bottom of the moutain, she may could easily just climb up to the top mountain by herself because she knew it was her clumsiness which caused that happen. She felt shame on herself. But what if Bella got pushed by Edward down to the bottom of the mountain, could she just climb up like she assume nothing happened before? She may could but with broken legs and bleeding heart. She could just let the sad memory passed once but not twice. Everyone deserve their second chance, so Bella give the second chance to Edward and wants him to promise it will never happen again..."
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