有时候，会幻想如果能够独自应付一切事情，那该多好。

有时候，真得很想自私一次，不顾一切的，飞到外国去。

(如果我有这能力再说吧..)

我飞~

>.<"

張惠妹 - 如果你也聽說

突然發現站了好久 不知道要往哪走
還不想回家的我 再多人陪只會更寂寞
許多話題關於我 就連我也有聽過
我的快樂要被認可 委屈卻沒有人訴說
夜把心洋蔥般剝落 拿掉防衛剩下什麼
為什麼脆弱時候 想你更多

如果你也聽說 有沒有想過我
像普通舊朋友 還是你依然會心疼我
好多好多的話想對你說 懸著一顆心沒著落
要怎麼附和 捨不得 又無可奈何

如果你也聽說 會不會相信我
對流言會附和 還是你知道我還是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了許多 懂我的人就你一個
想到你想起我 胸口依然溫熱

許多話題關於我 就連我也有聽過
我想我寧可都沉默 其實反而顯得做作
夜把心洋蔥般剝落 拿掉防衛剩下什麼
為什麼脆弱時候 想你更多

如果你也聽說 有沒有想過我
像普通舊朋友 還是你依然會心疼我
好多好多的話想對你說 懸著一顆心沒著落
要怎麼附和 捨不得 又無可奈何

如果你也聽說 會不會相信我
對流言會附和 還是你知道我還是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了許多 懂我的人就你一個
想到你想起我 胸口依然溫熱

如果你也聽說 有沒有想過我
像普通舊朋友 還是你依然會心疼我
跌跌撞撞才明白了許多 懂我的人就你一個
想到你想起我 胸口依然溫熱
如果你想起我 你會想到什麼

#1 Notes to myself

"Without goals, and plans to reach them, you are like a ship that has set sail with no destination." 


"Our goals can only be reached through a vehicle of a plan, in which we must fervently believe, and upon which we must vigorously act. There is no other route to success."

♥3 "At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet."

Sometimes in life, fate brings things together. When that happens you will find that one special person who would race over to your house in the middle of the night just to wipe the tears from your face. You will be able to go around with no makeup, sweat pants, major bed head and they will still make you feel beautiful. When you realize that you have this amazing person, hold on tight. Chances are that they are your soul mate.


♥

Being Me

Hello!~ How have you been during the last whole week? ;D

I don't get it why, actually it is kinda hard for me to think what to write on this post. I got many stuff to say, just that i don't know which one should come first..or even not to come out from here. :(  But, one thing I seriously need to be quick making up my mind and don't care about whoever that don't support me, which is change course and college. sigh.

I always asked myself during these days, am I being too selfish for not considering about my parents' financial problem and their desire for wanting me to quickly graduate,come out from my college life and start to earn money for them? T.T 

Let says, what if, the course I'm studying now is not what i hope or want to do in my future career. I've been to quantity survey industrial training last few months ago and I really find it boring to me. I know what I want now if I take it to compare with last time when I was still hesitate whether myself can study Interior Design courses or not. To most of my family and friends who know me,  I might seems weak for taking this course I belief, but actually this is really what i want to have in my life. To be a Designer ;)  I might really seems weak in art, in drawing, it's just because I don't have the confident to draw out a simple nice piece of art since i was in kindergarten. I still can recall back when I was five, I found out my drawing was ugly and I rubbed it off and in the end I asked my dad to help me draw it all over again for me. I like art, but I think possibly just lack of guidance, assurance and confident D: 

Okay, if you give me an opportunity to choose and have a talent and a desire job, I'll still choose good in art as my talent and become a designer as my desire job. And this is the point I found me.. I have all these in my deep deep heart inside just that I think I need more motivation and may be some inspiration to drive me toward them. I have a great dreams you see, I wish I can become an interior designer which can also help out my future husband in his work as in maybe we both own a company? Maybe it sounds funny to you, but to me, it's a great dream which I hope to own it. I'm gonna tell myself that, I may not be there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday :)

 

On the other hand, I'll think that it might be a good decision for me to change my course also since my boyfie will be going to pursues his further studies in Melbourne next coming years, though I knew I'll miss him damn much till myself also couldn't imagine it, still, I'll have to let him go, for his future good. And the maybe-good point is by that time we both are still a student, still studying in the same time. We can still remain on the almost same pathway. This is the one thing that at least makes me feel better, i guess. 



"Motivation is the fuel, necessary to keep the human engine running."
"The difference between the impossible and the possible lies in a person's determination."

張惠妹 - 我最親愛的

这首歌听起来的确很伤感，但我喜欢！

阿妹几乎每一首歌都那么有感染力~

听了，我现在的心情，都变得复杂了~ :(

Going the Distance #1

Hi there, this will be my first post for title 'Going the Distance'. We put it as Chapter #1 shall we? Cause I know, there would be have lots more chapters of this title in the coming next few years for me to continue writing about it.. I'm gonna relate it with my 'Time Flies Like An Bullet Train' in the same time. Time flies really really fast till i hardly breathe. :(

Seven years of relationship. While thinking it back, to me, yesterday was just seems like our first met in high school, in our 3 Lili class remember? ;) Hmm.. It was really uneasy to built up all these from the first we started till now. Both of us have invested so much on it. We had been through so much ups and downs that no one else could actually understand, except both of us. Okay~ I'm really not trying to story telling how good or bad again we are in our relationship here this time. Just that i have watched a movie this morning named 'GOING THE DISTANCE' starred by Drew Barrymore and Justin Long, i feel like telling out my thoughts and feelings. It is such a cute, funny and romantic movie. :D

While I was half way in the middle part of it, its really freaking me out.. I was so damn worrying we will be like them one day because they seems like not working out anything and just say good-bye to each other although both of them are still in love.. Sounds so sad yet complicate right? But i do really like their ending part cause although they said good-bye for about already half a year, things finally worked out and they finally back to each other again.. Aww..

*kiss kiss* 

And here's what i think lar.. I do believe, some times things might really don't work out as what we want, but, if there's a person out there who willing to skype with you without complaining the time difference because of being in two different countries which have different time zone and he/she still so into you, willing to give a try and try over and over again to do anything just to rescue, maintain and protect the relationship until you both get marry one day, then, he/she might will be one of the kind who really worth to be together in your future? I believe. :)

Time Flies Like An Bullet Train.

 sHuer, kaHHwee,Huiyee

We're the Triple H that we used to say last time remember?!

but hey, i just found out you own a double H. hahah.

The one who standing in the middle, she's my ji mui KahHwee. =D She's a pretty, brave and hardworking girl who pursued Interior Design course in The One Academy. And now, she's finally graduated!! Congratulation!! Feel so happy for her! =D   Among the three of us, she's the 1st one who graduate! Should shout-out-loud: "Hurrrray!~" right?  But then she always told me that she rather continue to go on her college life than so quickly to start a working life.  Although college life was quite stressful and tiring some times she said but i believe she really enjoyed it.  The second thing i feel happy for her is she get to continue her degree in UK on the coming September for about one year time. I'm gonna miss her a lot. *We skype okay? you said one* =D   Before that I really never thought of she'll be going to oversea to study, and work, may be, as I've been told.  Kinda big possibility that she'll be going to S'pore to work as an ID there once after she graduate her degree later on. Got attracted by their $$$ INCOME! *giggles*  Honestly, if I can have the chances as her now, I will also go to oversea and work for a few years time also. Cause as we know very well that Malaysia seriously is not a good place to work, and even stay or live in.  So, you see my dear, you're very very lucky enough! And I'm really proud of your achievement. Keep it up! Don't give up! And..of course, I'd always staying by your side support you de. ;) Muacks. Lastly I'd like to say again, Happy Graduation my dear Kah Hwee! <3

♥2 "At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet."

In every girl's life there will always be those three guys: 

the one she loves, 

the one she hates, and 
the one she can't get enough of. 

And in the end, they're all the same guy..

In fact, missing someone gets easier every day because 

even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, 

it's one day closer to the next time you will.

And hey, you may not be the brightest crayon in the box, 

but you're still my favorite color. <3